Personal Growth - Loving 'Me'
by Megha Bajaj
Megha is, above all, a seeker. These days she
is attempting to find herself in the role of a teacher
through the online writing course designed by her.
You can know more about her on
http://www.wonderofwords.org Considering the fact that I am with me, as intimate as can be, from birth to death, I really feel I have not treated myself well enough. So often, I have not loved myself the way I have loved another. So often, I had not given myself the respect that I give to others. So often, I have shied away from my company, and yearned to be with someone else. Things have changed. Oh yes, things have changed.
The breakthrough came one morning, when I was brushing my teeth. A seemingly mundane activity, and as always I was just running the well-used brush with my eyes cast downward, all over my 32 friends who help me eat, and make me smile. One more day, some more things to do, some more people to meet, some more people to make a difference to, some more money to earn ho-hum! Suddenly, I do not know why, I looked up and looked at myself. Not just looked, but really looked at myself. Something happened. I could not just see the curls, the forehead, the black eyes, nose and lips; suddenly I felt like I could see me, as if I could see my thoughts, my past, my true being, me. It was just a glimpse, but it was so beautiful that it is etched in bold in every cell of my being.
Ever since, the way I look at myself has gone through a paradigm shift. I do not see myself as a few molecules tightly packed together called a body. I do not see myself as a network of wires and energy called mind. I feel like I am more, so much more. Not even going into the spiritual notion of past lifetimes and being the spirit but just sticking to me, as I am, right now. It seemed to dawn upon me that I have gone through so many experiences, so many moments, so much of learning, so much of growing, so much of understanding.
From being an infant, completely dependent for everything, to taking those first few wobbly steps into freedom from being surrounded by family,
|I have gone through so many experiences, so many moments, so much of learning, so much of growing, so much of understanding.|
Somehow, the entire relationship with me just seems so special. I look at my mind and am awed by its monkey nature, the same way I would enjoy a child's antics. Thoughts do not worry me as much as they did. I just enjoy them the good ones, the bad ones whatever they are. Some deep-rooted insecurities that really troubled me earlier do not have that hold over me anymore. Like a piece of modern art I too am made up of the blues, the yellows, and the reds. And that is okay. I can simply sit by my side, and not feel lonely for hours. I relish in doing little things for myself just the way I would for another. I just love this person called me, and love discovering her, a moment at a time. Ah, it feels so good, somewhat like finding a best friend again.
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