The
author, who spent a fortnight in January 1998 at Andrew Cohen's retreat
in Rishikesh, India, describes how it transformed the participants
I'm riding the Shatabdi Express back to New Delhi, the capital of
India, reflecting on the two amazing weeks I've just spent on a retreat
in Rishikesh exploring the miracle of liberation with the American spiritual
teacher Andrew Cohen. As the green fields of the Indian countryside
fly serenely by, it again occurs to me that from now on life will never
be the same for me. The scope and transformative power of the experience
I've just shared with 300 people from all over the world (including a
dozen Indians) is impossible to exaggerate.
Between those of us who are on this train together, many of whom never
knew each other prior to the retreat, there persists a disarming receptivity
and vulnerability that one hardly ever encounters in the world at large.
It is clear to all of us that in Andrew's company we have witnessed
and participated in another dimension of existence. We have learned, and
can never forget, what it is actually possible for human life.
How is it possible, I wonder, for one individual to have such a profound
impact on so many? Though ultimately mysterious, the answer lies in Andrew's
teachings, which have emerged whole and perfect from his own awakening
barely 12 years ago. It is his conviction that deep experiential recognition
of our own true nature can never be complete unless the revolutionary
implications of such spiritual insight are fully embraced, fully lived,
by us.
The retreat with Andrew Cohen has been an opportunity to experience
the radical transformation that awaits anyone willing to ease their grip
on all that is kno wn and familiar. Just a glance at one of my radiant
traveling companions brings instant confirmation of my own experience:
that this explosion of life is now, that creation takes place constantly
within and among us, that life is truly ever new.
How
many of us arriving in Rishikesh would have imagined that such perfect clarity
was possible? Many of us had never met Andrew. Our minds struggled, seemingly
as one, to know something, anything, in the face of his relentless insistence
that the peace and joy of profound meditation
could only be discovered through our perfect willingness to "let everything be
as it is", and that true attentiveness consisted in "having no relationship to
the arising of thought or the presence of feeling".
For the first several days, the atmosphere in the teaching hall was electric
as we confronted again and again, first in meditation and then
in dialogue with Andrew, our own obstinate resistance to the possibility
of allowing every aspect of our experience, internal or external, simply
to be as it was. But slowly each of us learned, through close attention
to the trials and breakthroughs of others, to distinguish the iron grip
of the ego from the striking beauty of innocent surrender.
Even more exciting was the dawning recognition that this simple shift
alone was sufficient to catalyze, in the very instant it occurred, a profound
and astonishing transformation. One American woman, who had been in tears
almost constantly over the rough conditions of ashram life and her inability
to understand Andrew's instructions, surprised everyone when she
took the microphone and confidently analyzed her own unwillingness to
"let everything be as it is". Having seen through her own resistance,
she said, she had finally managed to do it, and she not only felt, but
looked, sounded and acted like a completely different person. Her realization
had literally transformed her from a lonely point of negativity into the
overflowing conduit of a positive radiance.
She was a living confirmation of Andrew's assertion that the real
purpose of our mutual investigation was the independent discovery, by
and for ourselves, of the "mechanics" of our own liberation. He was willing
to inspire us, he said at the beginning, but what was more important to
him was that we have the tools we needed to set ourselves free.
By
the time Andrew moved on from meditation to the practice
of contemplation, I felt as though his meditation instructions
formed the basis for a profound and miraculously subtle penetration into
the realm of spiritual experience. Between "letting everything be as it
is" and "having no relationship to the arising of thought or the presence
of feeling" there had bloomed within and among us a condition of spacious
concentration in which effortless relaxation and extraordinary alertness
were perfectly fused. It was amazing! But Andrew refused to allow
us to rest there. How, he now asked, does one bring this experience of
primordial peace, of "no fundamental problem", into the chaos and confusion
of the world of time and space? Since spiritual experience by itself is
sufficient to propel only the rarest of individuals into a permanently
immaculate condition, spiritual practice is critically important for most
people. A perfect teaching is like a jewel, he saida jewel in which
that timeless, impersonal and eternally trustworthy perspective can always
be found in the midst of flux, chaos and confusion of the experience of
being alive.
Andrew's presentation of the Five Tenets
of his teaching of enlightenment immediately propelled us into exploring
every aspect of our own experience. Now we began to discover how life
could indeed make perfect sense. His unusual requestthat we completely
relinquish any preoccupation with the personal and confine our conversation
to the impersonal perspective of these Five Tenets aloneset the
stage for an explosive and indescribably intimate outpouring of truth.
Discussions at meals, or during walks on the grounds or into town, betrayed
barely a hint of the competition and self-importance that almost always
keep human beings subtly or overtly apart.
In these discussions
we discovered for ourselves the overwhelming reality of our inherent oneness,
and the presence in us of a universal conscience whose care extends far beyond
the needs of any single individual.
Now,
as Delhi loomed ever closer, and as we were about to disperse once again
to the four corners of the globe, it was sobering to remember that in
fact the extraordinary and indestructible intimacy in which we had been
swimming for the past two weeks was tragically rare, and that the human
condition is what it is because so few are willing to bear the emotional
insecurity of fully responding, from moment to moment, to the mysterious
fact of our absolute interconnected-ness. It is for this reason, as Andrew
explained during the retreat, that more and more of us must try to become
clear about what is true and what is falseso that the inherent positivity
of life
is empowered to express itself unhindered through, and as, our lives.
This is so important, though in the world we live in, it is often far from obvious.
Imagine, then, what it must have been like this past January in Rishikesh, where
several times in as many days I heard people spontaneously express their willingness
to renounce anything and everything personal, not for themselves, but for the
sake of the Whole.