| Subject: life is unfair |
| I really think life is unfair. I dont seems to have what i hope to have despite me working so hard 7 wasting so much money on trying to achieve my dreams. All i want is just a nice warm family and not a family always full of argument and i am always the middle man. And i have real bad skin, an ance sufferer for so long, despite trying to cure it i ended up getting disappointment and my pocket always has a big hole. To make matter worst, i have small brown pigmentation on my whole day which i think is inherited. I cant wear nice shorts cause i am scared of showing my legs i dont even want to go out. To make matter worst, i once bummped into a girl and she critised my skin as she went off just to get back to me for bumping into me. So what if i have skin problem, am i not human??!! Is it because i did something bad in my previous life so i get this punishment in this life? And i have no money, i got to save extremely hard by cutting out my meals so as to save the money to cure my skin (i am a student). My mum has also spent lots of money to help me and i feel very bad cause we dont have money to actually do that. Whenever, i go out and saw those girls with good complexion, i am so envy, and i feel that they are looking at me in disgust. Honestly, my looks are ok but my skin problem seems to make the so ugly.I am afraid that i will get depression, as i am thinking about my skin almost everyday, sometimes i lose insomia and my familys matters is killing me, i feel like dying but i know i cant cause my family afterall, still loves me. I keep on thinking why me? why i am deaf in 1 ear, i have bad skin, i dont have warmth family? why my friends have? i know that i may not be the most unfortunate person, there are many out there more unfortunate than me. But why cant god be fairer? why dont they just give me a good skin and family? I am not expecting to be a real beauty just a normal healthy person will do. Why some ppl can have every good things in this world? I did not do any evil things in this life instead i try my best to help ppl. Does it mean i have to wait till nxt life than i can get what i want? Moreover, i have many friends but no true friend. I am really sad, because of all these problems, i cutted out the activities that a teenage shld have, i am afraid to venture out into the world. What should i do? |
| Posted by: christine on 21 Jun. 2010 |
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