Abundance

Abundance

Being Abundance 

When Suma Varughese learnt that she was  abundance, her insecurity reduced and her  capacity to give increased.  

No sooner did I begin to assert  that I was abundance and that I  attracted it into my life ethically  through known and unknown  sources, than I began to relax and  my capacity to give grew. I had  many years ago understood that  abundance lay in the recognition  that if you had enough resources  for the moment, it was enough.  To expect resources to last you  

I have always been a victim of  insecurity, which showed up  in many ways, but particularly  so when it came to my financial  future. I have been saving money  for this alleged future for many  years, but even so, a persistent  sense of ‘not enough’ would  gnaw at me, especially when my  resources began to dwindle. 

Eventually, I tired of it and  decided to face my financial  situation head-on and see if I  could manage to sustain my  present lifestyle with my savings.  My financial consultant, who is  also a dear friend, pressed one  of his associates into service to  help me figure this out. The  young man came over and after  a few calculations gave me the  cheery news that even if I never  worked at all, I would still be  able to sustain my lifestyle into  my 80s. And if I did manage to  make a modest income of Rs  1.5 lakh per annum for the next  five years, my financial comfort  would be assured for the rest of  my life. 

That helped me considerably to  reduce my sense of insecurity, but  as usual, the real work has to be  done from within. While striving  to heal my gut issues through  deep inner work, I had become  more and more aware that my  body was fundamentally whole  and perfect, and that it was only  the fears and anxieties that were  causing the stomach muscles to  constrict and become ineffective.  The more I freed myself of the  fears, the more easily the stomach  settled down and began to resume  its activities.  

If that was true of the body, why  not of my mind? After all, 30  years ago, an inner experience  had shown me that I was whole  and perfect, and had always had  been so. It was the conditioning  of the ego that had created the  illusion that I was limited, flawed  and not enough. This being so,  my very nature was abundance.  Abundance flowed through me  and all I really had to do was to  get the limiting beliefs, thoughts  and feelings out of the way. 

for your whole lifetime was to  take on a job that did not belong  to you – it belonged to God. My  job was to live in the moment  and to live abundantly. The  future would take care of itself.  Strangely enough, my income  also shot up substantially. 

I also decided that I was going  to treat myself better, and not  suppress my legitimate desires.  I would apportion a certain  amount of money annually for  a holiday and to participate  in enriching workshops and  learning programmes. Or even  to buy things I had been wanting  to for a long time, like a pair of  binoculars, for instance.  

I am learning not to worry about  whether I have enough. I know  that I do. What is better, I know  that I am enough.  

Suma Varughese is a teacher of words and wisdom.  She broadcasts spiritual truths and a love for  writing in her various capacities as columnist, writer, writing coach, and the founder-facilitator  of the popular Zen of Good Writing Course. She  is the former editor of Life Positive and Society  magazines. She has authored Travelling Light,  Travelling Lighter, and 50 Life Lessons. She can be contacted at sumavarughese@gmail.com

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