As I see life in Retrospect...

Decades have already passed by…
And so much time in life, recognised as well as unrecognised, has gone by..

Forty seven years on the planet does not seem one moment too little, here in those dejected moments where wrath, pain and failure suddenly became larger than life, as if solidified in time. Who wants to look further and how deep could one go, where one just wanted to remind and rewind to years of being a kid.

But… was I ever a kid??

This ask of me gave me a clear answer, that I indeed never was!

I was always an adult in a tiny body, responsible and mature. I had never permitted myself to be silly or act stupid. I had seemingly missed this important phase of life, where all is hunky dory and all is taken care of.

I was always an adult in a tiny body, responsible and mature. I had never permitted myself to be silly or act stupid.

On the other hand…

While in moments of gratitude, many events, episodes and anecdotes come to mind, which make one play and laugh in their memory, making one dive deeper into gratitude.

They remind that life could have taken any turn, anytime. They tell you that the land that you were tilling till yesterday, would get you to enjoy the fruits of time, fruits that you had been asking for and had the patience to see them bear, what ever they brought with them, of course without calculating or judging.

All I know of today is that these twists and turns churned, sieved and percolated a lot in me, and from me. There was nothing, absolutely nothing, that did not give me the next step to germinate and grow, and grow beautifully through being more tuned into myself, unravelling my potential, growing into something better, bigger, deeper, and wider in thought and expression.

For coal takes its sweet time to be that precious a diamond, which very few can afford.

I choose to live this life committed to every conscious breath, in every passing moment

Today I have stepped up to see myself in the mirror that I have been lucky to frame for myself, as my horizons grow far and wide, and as I choose to live this life committed to every conscious breath, in every passing moment.