Thy will be done

Thy will be done

March 2013

An insight helps Suma Varughese recognizesthat it is not free will but God’s will all the way 

The beauty of an insight is that you simply do not know at which moment it may spring upon you, and transform your life forever. I had put a lot of effort in ensuring the success of the Mumbai Expo (my city after all!). I spoke to a close friend who I was sure would be coming and was dispirited to find that she had made other plans. The mind chose the opportunity to feel sorry for itself and play a blame game, “She knows how much trouble I had taken, and surely she could have supported me by coming,” it grumbled. Suddenly, a brand new thought presented itself. How could I possibly blame my friend for it? Surely the decision whether she was to come or not to come for the Expo was taken by the Universe and not her?

If she had been meant to come, she would have come. But she was not meant to come and therefore she decided not to come. God was the decision-maker and I already knew that everything He decided was always in my highest and best interests, so why blame my friend? Immediately, my sense of injury and ill will dissolved. I had nothing against my friend any more. Instead, gratitude and love dawned. How good of her to have given me an opportunity to receive this insight! And how good of God to have prevented her from coming! This wondrous perspective has shifted me to a whole new zone. There is no more blame – for who do I blame? Not the person because he or she has only acted according to the dictates of the Higher Power. And as for blaming God, I knew only too well that everything, even the harshest of circumstances. have only been opportunities for growth – so no blame there. I can see the hand of God in everything and everyone, and it makes life incredibly simple and beautiful With no one to blame, all the resultant emotions of anger, self-pity and separation from the other has dropped away. Instead, there is a movement towards the other for it is becoming increasingly clear that all these things are opportunities for me to focus on my growth and their welfare. This insight is enabling me to move from guilt and regret too. For I too have thought, said and done what I was meant to, therefore I need not drown in self-recrimination. Instead, I can use the opportunities to learn from and act more wisely in future. I am also using this insight to heal myself fully of the past. Why should I blame any of those I had mistakenly imagined had hurt me? They did what they did because they were meant to and the purpose was always for my growth. The realization puts me in mind of Ramesh Balsekar’s teaching which he used to sum up in four words, “Thy will be done.” Indeed, one is recognizing that there is no will but God’s will. I have found that to be true in the tiniest of circumstances. There were places I did not want to go but circumstances conspired that I should; there were other places I wanted to go to and circumstances prevented me. I can see the hand of God in everything and everyone, and it makes life incredibly simple and beautiful. Everything is coalescing in the same direction for it is all meant to move me to the next level and to grow in love, gratitude and acceptance. Thank you, God!