What disturbs me

What disturbs me

December 2015

What disturbs me?  

The life inside me is so satisfying, so pure, so mine that I want to build a house inside me, where the only caring one is my soul, my enlighten soul, enlightens with infinite peace. My all imperfections for the outside world are so perfect inside me, that I find the acceptance for all these bullshit imperfections. Yes, I am over-emotional, yes, I make mistakes more often, yes, I got exited with small things, yes, I am like a kid at the age of 26, and all the real in me is perfect, when it is inside me but becomes incompatible, when this real met with the judgemental world or the judgemental surrounding, when everyone is running for unconscious perfection of future, by seeing possibilities in others. The world where comparisons are more often, with others, with your own past, with your relations, all cause the hindrance in the pure acceptance of a being. When my nature, my inside says, there is nothing wrong in me, why others having problem, the way I am, as if I am not one of them. They say, you are different, how? , as we all are so different from each other, but with same emotions. This all I said to you, doesn't bothers me, what disturbs me, is that I m also one of that judgemental being , who knows the inside is the perfection only, but want to perfect the outside, the surrounding. And when do not find it in my way, get disturbed, gets frustrated. So what disturb me is me only. But one day, I will understand the all life in me and in others, the insight of everyone and mine. And just love in me will exist, without the disturbance in me, without a doubt in me.