By Harvinder Kaur November 2008 Life is easier if you ‘let go’ and not try to control the life of others. a spiritual story Don’t die,ma. Please don’t die on me… please.” Ma’s eyes opened slightly for the last time, to let out some secrets for those who could understand the language of eyes, and then they closed forever. Rakesh’s first reaction was not of tearing pain, it was, “What will I say to Trisha?” Then he broke down. Grandpa bent down and put a hand on his son’s shoulder. Then the two men held each other, something they had not done for many, many years. Grief binds in a strange way. “Swati, beta, you will have to go to Trisha’s school. Do not tell her anything until her stage performance is over, or she will not be able to sing. I think you too must go, Rakesh. It will not take long. I will take care of the hospital formalities.” Grandpa had steadied his voice and the stoic calm that was characteristic of him came back even amidst the storm of death. Swati always secretly admired him for this, a quality she wished Rakesh had inherited from his father, instead of becoming aggressive with people and fate. Rakesh turned with a jerk to his mother’s body that reposed in death. “Get up, Ma, get up!” he jerked back and shook his mother’s arm. “It’s not fair, it’s not fair,” Rakesh was still sobbing “How can she die today – on her birthday, when Trisha is singing a tribute to her in school. She is waiting.” The doctor who stood at the back watching this came forward now, “I’m really sorry, Mr. Sheth, for the loss, but your mother died painlessly. Please try to take comfort in that.” Swati put her hands on his shoulders that were heavy with grief and quietly led him out. They had to break the news to their daughter in a way that her heart would not break. It was a very delicate heart like her father’s, which would not accept change or grief easily. How will they tell Trisha? “Trisha, your song is next. You are ready, aren’t you, sweetheart?” Trisha loved her teacher, especially when she called her ‘sweetheart’; it made her feel warm all over, like after grandma’s hugs. “Ma’am, can you see my grandma, she promised she would come, but she went to the doctor.” “Okay, you be ready, I am sure she will be there with your parents in the audience.” “No, I want to see them first,” Trisha’s voice hardened. Her teacher knew what that meant. She secretly prayed that Trisha would not get into her fit of stubbornness just when she was to sing a solo song in front of all the guests and parents. “Look, Trisha, I can’t make you see from here because we are backstage. When you go on stage, I am sure you will be able to spot them. Just think about the song, take a deep breath and you will sing beautifully.” Her teacher was suddenly reminded of the time when Trisha did not eat or drink anything for the whole day. When she had asked her why she was not having the lunch that her mother had packed, she was surprised by the response, “My mother promised to give me sandwiches last night, but it is rice.” “But you like rice, don’t you, Trisha?” Trisha did not say a word and she decided to cajole her a little more. “Come on now, have your lunch.” She opened the lunch box for her. Suddenly, she had a few rice grains on her specs and the rest all over the classroom. She knew after that she would have to be extremely careful with this seven-year-old. She could not take a broken promise. Trisha walked onto the stage in front. The whole hall was full of everyone’s mummy and daddy, grandfathers and grandmothers. Where were hers in this big hall overflowing with so many people? The music started, her teacher in the wings anxiously encouraged her to start singing. She did, even as her eyes searched for her family. She went into an alaap just the way her grandmother had taught her. Where was grandmother? The audience became very quiet, they realised that this child was exquisitely talented. Ham chaahto ke gulam nahi Ham dard se aage jate hainAndheron se ghabrate nahiHamen chirag jalane aate hain Ham hawa ka thanda jhoka haiRuki saanson ko chalate hainHum jal ki chalti dhaara haiSookhi zameen ko hara banate hain Khate meethe sab sawaal hamarehamari gol-mol koi baat nahiRang-birange hain khel hamare, Hai seedhi-sachhi baat yahee. Andheron ki kaali chadar parTim-timate taron ko chipkate hainPedon ko rangeen pankh de karZamin ko aasman par le jate hain After the second stanza, she spotted her mummy and daddy. He wasn’t wearing his blue shirt, the one she had told him to. Where was ‘daadi?’ She was not there, nor was grandpa! The audience could sense something was wrong. The child’s concentration had wavered, and she had stopped mid-stanza. Rakesh without realising it, held Swati’s hand. For once, he wished his daughter would behave like her grandfather – Trisha stopped singing. There was a dead silence in the hall. Those who sat in the front rows could see the expression on the face of this talented child change. In fact, it froze, as if an iron cast had come over it. Her teacher knew what this meant, she knew it was useless to urge or force her to do anything at this point. Trisha was not like other children in many ways. She went to the stage and very gently led Trisha away. The incomplete song and the audience’s wonder hung in the air like Damocles’ sword. She would be called to the Principal’s office afterwards, she knew that. Her parents came backstage to take her home. When Trisha returned after a week to school, her friends found her changed. They tried to make her feel ‘good’ and tried to play with her, just as Miss Sheela had asked them to, but Trisha was not interested in playing. In fact, she was not interested in anything anymore. She did not even stand near the window and sing songs as she used to. Her best friend told everyone, “It is because she misses her grandmother, who has now become a star.” “No silly, her grandmother has gone to God.”“That’s how you become a star!”Even though everyone tried to make Trisha laugh and play, she did not do anything. The children gave up trying. “Miss Sheela, Trisha has become like the statue in the hall,” a kid remarked.Her teacher was worried. After a fortnight, she called the parents.“It is not just a question of loss,” Swati explained to Miss Sheela, but before she could say anything more, Rakesh’s urgent voice took over, “Look, she had prepared so hard, and that song was taught by mother. When the annual day fell on my mother’s birthday, Trisha told her that she will give it her best, and that would be her birthday gift for her. She was excited and even selected the clothes all of us would wear. She made my mother promise that she will be there on the annual day no matter what. That’s how it would have been had she not had a stroke the night before.”“I understand. It is difficult for anyone to bear it.”Miss Sheela could see that Rakesh had drifted.“It’s so unfair,” he muttered to himself. She noticed that both his fists were clenched. Swati and Sheela looked at each other. Rakesh came home earlier than usual. He was in time to have dinner with everyone else, instead of having it in his study with his laptop. “I’m not hungry,” he told Swati dryly, “you people eat.” He watched his little daughter eat her dinner. It was as if she had lost her taste buds. A few months earlier, she would have demanded ice cream and would have created a fuss over the soup. He ripped off his tie and threw himself on the bed. He was tired in every way. He was sick of office politics, he could not reach the targets his bosses set, and his subordinates could not meet theirs. He had lost his mother and the spirit of life had been sucked away from his daughter. He still had his father and his wife, but where would she go anyway? It was his daughter who wrenched his heart. If only it had not happened the way it did. God was not fair, if there is a God that is, he could never make up his mind. “What’s the matter, Rakesh, why are you so tired?” his wife asked him after dinner. “Nothing, just work.” He actually wanted to say, that it was life and its unfairness. It was not fair that after working so hard, people did not recognise him enough and he had to struggle to keep office politics under check. He had been manipulating and pressurising people almost all his life. Even at home, he had put pressure on his wife to stop working when their daughter was born. It was selfish of her to want to work when they had a baby to take care of. Thank goodness, his mother made her see sense. “Your shoulders are stiff and heavy,” she put her hands on his shoulders to ease the tension which always reflected in his taut posture before showing on his face. “It’s nothing,” even as he said it, his head leaned back onto the softness of her breasts, and he let go. When he opened his eyes there were tears in them. In the morning, when they were having their leisurely Sunday breakfast, Trisha surprised all of them with a question, “Mummy, why don’t you work like my teacher and the aunty next door?”They all looked at each other, Rakesh at Swati, Swati at Rakesh and then both at Grandpa. No one was prepared for this. They were relieved and puzzled at the same time.“I can, sweetheart, but it’s been a long time,” Swati fumbled.“You see, Trisha, before you were born, Mummy was a designer,
Life Positive follows a stringent review publishing mechanism. Every review received undergoes -
Only after we're satisfied about the authenticity of a review is it allowed to go live on our website
All our healers and therapists undergo training and/or certification from authorized bodies before becoming professionals. They have a minimum professional experience of one year
All our healers and therapists are genuinely passionate about doing service. They do their very best to help seekers (patients) live better lives.
All payments made to our healers are secure up to the point wherein if any session is paid for, it will be honoured dutifully and delivered promptly
Every seekers (patients) details will always remain 100% confidential and will never be disclosed